Playlist for my “Insane” album is now on Youtube

I have just finished creating a playlist for the “Insane” album that I have for sale.

No fancy videos but the music is all there.  This is mostly older pieces that I have decided to gather into an album and sell. To buy it click the “Go to my store” icon on the right.

Hope you try the playlist here!

Playlist: Insane
Watch this playlist on YouTube

May we all have the best possible outcomes,

Cy

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Bladder Cancer, Spring Fishing

Despite the cancer procedure last week, I decided to go on my annual spring fishing trip with friends.  We have been doing this more than 25 years.  Can’t let a little cancer get in the way of tradition!

The weather was beautiful here in Colorado on the Arkansas River.  The rental house that my buddy found in Salida was great.  We found the fishing to be tough, but we all caught fish.  My fish count was the worst.  That happens sometimes even to me and I had the excuse of recovering from bladder cancer surgery.

I had to go to the rental and sleep in the afternoon on the first and third day of the trip.  My body was weaker from the recovery and my carcinoid was acting up a bit, I think from the general anesthesia the week before and from the pain pills.  Although the bladder cancer procedure pain was not very bad by the time of the trip, my back pain has also been acting up lately and unfortunately I had a bit of a problem with climbing the steep banks of the Arkansas on the first day of fishing and I had to stick to easier access points for the rest of the trip.

My urinary surgeon called to tell me the biopsy results from the surgery.  He said that the cancer was non-invasive including a “black spot” he had worried about and that the good biopsy meant he would not have to remove my bladder!  I previously knew nothing of a “black spot” or the possibility of bladder removal.  I think they just don’t remember what they have told us or not.  At least the prognosis is good.

We agreed that I would go through the BCG immunology treatment that I discussed in my previous blog.  However, that cannot start until Laurie and I return from our Scotland/Iceland trip in late May.

The first three days in the mountains were mostly sunny with temperature near 70 degrees F. The last morning we fished with temperatures in the high 50s.  In the afternoon, we drove through a snow storm to get home to Denver. Today, the next day, the snow storm is here in Denver and we are expecting about 14 inches of snow.  Colorado is an amazing place!  I feel lucky to be living here.

May you have the best possible outcomes,

Cy

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My second album for sale

Album Cover
Album Cover

I have remixed a number of my songs and created the album that I call “Insane”.

The music genre is mixed; some dance, some rock, some electronica, some just my style!

NOTE: The pricing is pay what you want. If you click a button to buy something, there is a place to edit the price to whatever you want.

I am excited about this obviously. It has taken some bravery on my part to see if people will pay for my music.  There have been some sales of the first album.

The web address is:

http://www.nimbitmusic.com/cyball

May we all have the best possible outcomes,
Cy

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Urinary Bladder Cancer, Carcinoid Cancer, Medical People

The Treatment

Today, Friday April 8, 2016, I had a day surgery to scrape urinary bladder cancer out of my bladder and to place some chemo into the bladder. The chemo was an attempt to keep the cancer from recurring. This was the third time that the scraping procedure has been performed and at least the second time that chemo has been applied. I was released from the hospital a few hours after the procedure which took about an hour. There will be a biopsy of the material removed from me and my surgeon will let me know of the report.  In the previous treatments, I was told that the lesions were “normal” bladder cancer, not carcinoid and that bladder cancer is most usually related to smoking.  The procedure was deemed successful enough that I can go on a four day fly fishing trip in the Colorado mountains on Tuesday the 12th.

The surgeon and I will meet soon and decide whether to commit to a treatment called BCG. This is a type of immunotherapy drug used to prevent tuberculosis (TB), but it’s also an effective treatment for some non-invasive bladder cancers. It’s given directly into the bladder. It’s supposed to prevent bladder cancer from recurring and from becoming invasive. My surgeon says that the treatment lasts about three hours total and is performed once a week for eight weeks and then periodically monthly or quarterly.  I don’t yet have the full schedule that he proposes. The drug is actually composed of dead tuberculosis cells and there is a small chance of contracting tuberculosis.  My brother has had this treatment and it is apparently working for him.

What is the relationship to Neuroendocrine Cancer?

I had general anesthesia and I DID NOT have a carcinoid crisis and DID NOT have to stay the night in an ICU!  Whoopee!!! For those of you unfamiliar with Carcinoid Crisis, you can read these:

I have found over the five years since my diagnosis that I must always make sure that the surgeon and the anesthesiologist be well informed about NETs and carcinoid crisis and that they are prepared to take steps to avoid it or stop it.

The Doctors and Staff

Because I have changed insurance, this procedure was performed in a whole new environment for me. Different surgeon, anesthesiologist, nurses and even hospital.  I did my usual song and dance about the neuroendocrine cancer to the surgeon two months before the procedure and then reminded him a week before the procedure.  When the hospital called me for pre-operative arrangements, I did the song and dance again.  In all those songs I emphasized that the anesthesiologist had to be selected and notified in advance of these concerns. (Hospitals often select anesthesiologists the day they are needed.  Don’t let that happen!)

The surgeon was very supportive from the beginning and accepted a booklet for doctors about NETs.  The anesthesiologist called me at 8:00 pm the day before the surgery and we discussed my medical history.  We also talked about the facts that anesthesiologists are taught about carcinoid crisis in school but may never see a NETs patient in their career. He thought that he had seen one but wasn’t sure.  Both doctors expressed thanks that I had the knowledge and the willingness to insist on refreshing their knowledge of the subject. The nurses also seemed to have refreshed their knowledge on the subject.

All in, this was a very positive experience (given that it was a cancer procedure!)

May we all have the best possible outcomes,

Cy

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“Carcinoid” music video released today.

I got a great signal boost from The Carcinoid Cancer Foundation yesterday! The COO @CarcinoidNETs on Twitter tweeted about my new YouTube videos and she posted on the Carcinoid Cancer Foundation (CCF) Facebook page about my music and blog as well!

This is tremendous exposure for me and I am now trying to return the favor by posting a music video of my piece “Carcinoid”.  This music was composed in 2011 about 3 months after I was diagnosed with carcinoid cancer, during the time that I was quite ill from a treatment called chemoembolization or TACE (transarterial chemoembolization).  That treatment was supposed to be outpatient but I went into Carcinoid Crisis and spent the night in the Intensive Care Unit!  I was told that there would be “flu-like” symptoms for 3 weeks but mine lasted 4 weeks and for a week there was a fair amount of pain in my liver.  After the illness my symptoms from the cancer disappeared and my liver tumor shrank.  Unfortunately, after six months, the tumors grew back and the symptoms came back actually worse than ever.

The music is an echo of my emotional and physical illness from the cancer diagnosis and the treatment.

Carcinoid

Watch this video on YouTube.

 

This music is a free download at my store.

May we all have the best possible outcomes,
Cy

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YouTube Videos Loaded 2016-02-22

I have created some videos for YouTube to support my music store.  I am told that YouTube is the second largest search engine.  That means that more people will have the chance to see the videos and click on the link to the store.

Click here for my YouTube Channel.

These are simple videos which emphasize the music. I have also created a playlist for the album:

Playlist: Chillin It
Watch this playlist on YouTube

Since yesterday, I have received a few views and a couple of likes and a comment.

Since opening the store last week, there are a couple of sales and a few fans signed up.

Certainly not “going viral” but it’s a start.

Namaste,
Cy

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My music store is open!

I have decided to try to sell my music instead of give it away. The new store contains the first album that I have created from existing tracks. All have been freshly mixed/mastered.

Below is the profile and first product.  You can click the “Store” menu item at the top to see the store.

NOTE: The pricing is pay what you want. If you click a button to buy something, there is a place to edit the price to whatever you want.

I am excited about this obviously. It has taken some bravery on my part to see if people will pay for my music. The web address is:

http://www.nimbitmusic.com/cyball

I will be adding another album soon.

May we all have the best possible outcomes,
Cy

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Mid Winter Neuroendocrine Conference 2016

Saturday February 6, the University of Colorado will host our Mid Winter Neuroendocrine Cancer Conference.
The agenda and a link to registration are posted on the Colorado Carcinoid Cancer Support Group website:
http://cccsg.net/

This is the first year that the University of Colorado Cancer Center has hosted and arranged this and we are excited to attend it.

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Scotland, Carcinoid, etc. January 2016

We returned yesterday from Scotland. We took grandparent Christmas to the Derek, Kat and Ansel there. It was fun.

The weather was not as bad as it could have been.  Temperatures between 31 F and 40 F.  Some days of drizzle. The Scottish word ‘dreich’ describes wet, cold, overcast; we had some of that, but, no wind and storm from the North Sea.  We were fine, if a little cold, walking around the town.

This was the second trip to Anstruther that we stayed at a bed & breakfast called the ‘Lahloo Bed & Breakfast’.  It is named after an old clipper ship.  We enjoy the proprietors, the rooms, and the breakfasts. Its location is perfect, just a few blocks from our son’s house and a short block to the picturesque harbor.  If you would like to know more about it go to www.lahloobandb.co.uk.

As usual, I experienced the carcinoid syndrome for about half the trip, but it was controlled pretty well by drugs.  It did not prevent me from being able to confidently take long walks and bus rides.

Now that we are back in Denver, I will schedule the bladder procedure to remove bladder cancer.  My new urinary cancer specialist says we should probably also plan on the biologic treatments.

Also, within the next couple of months I will be scheduled for scans to assess the progression of the carcinoid cancer. A CT scan and the new (to the U.S.) GA-68 scan are in my future.  The GA-68 scan produces much better pictures of the location of the neuroendocrine cancer tumors than the octreoscans that I have had annually in the past.  When matched with the CT scan, the doctor may be able to more exactly locate the tumors in my body.  I probably will also schedule a minor, day surgery to remove two lumps from my breast to determine if they are NETs or breast cancer or just benign lumps.

You can be sure that I will write about that stuff as it happens and results are known.

May we all have the best possible outcomes,
Cy

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Thanksgiving, Christmas, Cancer

This Thanksgiving was spent in San Jose, CA. My brother Tony had lung cancer surgery. One lobe and a dozen lymph nodes and a piece of rib removed. We got good news. He is classed stage 2A. The cancer has not spread as far as they can tell. He now has to decide whether to have chemo.

I went there to aid and support him. He recovered so quickly after leaving the hospital that he was driving and cooking within 3 or 4 days. His son Cy and Cy’s fiancee Jordan provided us with a turkey dinner. Then his daughter Elise and her partner Carol provided another turkey dinner.  We ate well. It was good to get to know them all.

A good thing for me was that I continued my daily walks and during my walks I found a Vietnamese Buddhist temple.  I went there 4 times for meditation. It was a beautiful, serene place.

On returning here, I have had my last Sandostatin injection for neuroendocrine cancer at my HMO. Next month I will start going to Dr. Liu’s offices for that. Hoping that this will be a positive change in my life.

Today, I got an unwelcome Christmas present. The bladder cancer has recurred. Because I I am changing insurance, I will wait until next month to see a new doctor and get their opinion and action plan.  I am told that the cancer is very low grade and that I should be able to wait a couple of months.

Despite the bad news, our house is decorated for Christmas and we will have a good crowd here this weekend for a holiday dinner. I am looking forward to it.

Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, Happy Holidays, Namaste,

Cy

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Carcinoid and Results Based Medicine and Me

After over 4 years of battling my HMO and my oncologists to get the treatments that I knew were recommended by specialists in the field, my oncologist finally sat down and told me that she would likely have arguments over any orders of my new Carcinoid Specialist (her current objection is simply some new blood tests). She told me why… The HMO and she are committed to results based medicine. As a result, I am leaving her and the Kaiser Permanente HMO.

Caution, these thoughts are my understanding and opinions.  I am not a medical professional.

As a statement, “results based medicine” sounds good and if your disease is well known and thoroughly studied, it possibly is good. Results based medicine (also known as Evidence Based medicine) means basically the physicians will only use medicine and treatments from well designed and conducted research.  In addition, the results of that research should be made available to physicians through guidelines from professional sources, guidelines and checklists.  This is great. It tends to protect the patient and the doctor and make the doctor’s work more efficient.

Why then must I leave my insurance company? What does “results based” mean to me?

I have neuroendocrine cancer. This is a disease which is rare and poorly understood. There are very few medicines or treatments which qualify as “results based”.  In fact, my doctor has complained that there are no guidelines for neuroendocrine cancer (there are guidelines but they are not 100% results based).  The only treatments that qualify as “results based” are a couple of drugs that treat the symptoms and might inhibit tumor growth a bit and maybe a treatment called embolism which has been used for many liver cancers for years.

That means that my doctor and my HMO believe that only my symptoms should be treated by a limited number of drugs which are known to stop working after a few years and that the doctors will monitor the progress of my disease with a limited subset of the possible tools to check how sick I am. Actually it is not really very important to monitor the progress of the disease because they do not allow themselves enough options to change the strategy anyway. To me: this is something like ongoing hospice care, by which I mean they only attempt to keep me comfortable while the disease kills me.  It amounts to a refusal to treat me with the advancements currently being made and known by the specialists in the field. In fact, my doctor evidenced disdain for specialists.  Note that most neuroendocrine specialists treat more cases in a month than my oncologist or any nonspecialist oncologist will treat in their entire career. The specialists might know something that the others don’t.

Should I be satisfied to get sick and die because those doctors have committed to only certain standards of treatment?  I don’t think so.

I think that any patient with neuroendocrine cancer or any rare or unusual disease should find out if their docs follow only “results based” medicine or not.  I think that, ethically, doctors should be obligated to tell patients what that decision means for them instead of playing verbal games when the patient suggests a new treatment. If their doctor claims to strictly “result or evidence based medicine”, any neuroendocrine patient should get away from that doctor or insurance as far and as fast as they can.  That doctor will not treat the disease.  The patient will likely get sicker sooner and die earlier than need be.  We patients do not have the obligation to die for the doctor’s beliefs.

I have wasted 4 years battling doctors/insurance who only wanted to treat symptoms. when I asked for a standard tumor lab test called Ki-67 which measures tumor growth rate, they answered “Why? The treatment would not change no matter the rate.” Anybody who has dealt with cancer knows that how fast it is growing is very important.  By being obnoxious I managed to get chemoembolism but that only worked for a few months.  After getting progressively sicker for a year and being told that surgery as a treatment was not proven in a double-blind study and that it might kill me (true but not likely), I went to an outside doctor who wrote an opinion that I should have surgery as soon as possible. My oncologist caved and approved it but was never happy about it even though I have felt better in the two years since the surgery than I felt in the 3 years before the surgery.

Thank goodness for Medicare and the Affordable Care Act. Thank goodness that this month is the Medicare Open Enrollment Month.  Changing Medicare Advantage Plans was easier than I thought it would be.  I should note that I had to go to a Medicare appeal process recently after the HMO denied a request for referral to the specialist. They then denied my appeal.  Medicare requires that they get to review a denial of an appeal.  Medicare reversed the denial saying this:

“The enrollee has been proactive regarding his disease and although carcinoid tumors are often seen by medical oncologists and surgeon, it is not their major interest; new regimens and drugs are always being considered.  Consulting with a specialist in his disease would be appropriate for this patient.”

and

“Our MAXIMUS Doctor Consultant says that the enrollee should be allowed to consult with the OON (out of network) specialist due to the plan’s network having insufficient expertise in this enrollee’s condition.”

Now I have changed plans, I can have my Carcinoid Specialist as my normal oncologist, not just a consultant. The problem is that now I also have to select a Primary Care Physician, a Cardiologist and a Cardiac Electrophysiologist and a Urinary Surgeon but it’s worth it.  I already feel better.

May we all have the best possible outcomes,

Cy

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Remarkable trip to Scotland

Thursday evening we returned home from a ten day trip to Scotland where we visited our son Derek, his wife Kat and our sweet 2.5 yr old grandson Ansel.

Kat, Ansel, Derek
Kat, Ansel, Derek

We also spent two full days in Edinburgh seeing and re-seeing the sights and museums.

Why was it remarkable? There were two reasons:

  1. The weather was dry and partly cloudy with highs in the mid 50s Fahrenheit. For this time of year that’s unusual.
  2. Very little trouble with carcinoid syndrome especially the diarrhea.

The carcinoid syndrome always happens when I travel but this time I used a prescription recommended by the carcinoid specialist that I saw three weeks ago. It was diphenoxylate/atropine (Lomotil).  It worked quicker and more reliably than the over-the-counter remedy which I had been using Loperamide Hcl (Immodium).  The Immodium worked but I had to take more than recommended and it took hours sometimes.

We walked for quite a bit in Edinburgh, Anstruther and St. Andrews.  I was disappointed that I am a bit weaker than I used to be (not a big surprise).

We had a lovely time visiting Derek, Kat and Ansel.  Spent a lot time spoiling the little guy.  That’s what grandparents are for!

 

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My first consult with Neuroendocrine Cancer Specialist

The consult with Dr. Liu was today and it was wonderful.

No change in the treatment is recommended. He says the known tumors are too small to do anything about. He is also not concerned about unlocated primary.  It’s common and could even be hidden in the liver on some structure.  I have never heard that before!

He believes that the lump in my breast “feels like a carcinoid” and should be removed and biopsied.  He says that the sample should compared to the previous biopsy from my liver. I did not really understand why, but that is supposed to make the neuroendocrine diagnosis easier. If it is carcinoid, no other action is necessary.

He has requested three new blood tests that should be sent to ISI for analysis.

  • 5-HIAA, plasma not urine
  • Neurokinin A (substance K)
  • Substance P

Some other symptoms that I have which I thought might be carcinoid related (sudden blood pressure drops, breathlessness), he thinks not. He recommends more work with cardiology.

All in all, this is good.  My neuroendocrine cancer is stable. I happen to feel well currently also.

May we all have the best possible outcomes,

Cy

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